Jen's 3N Breast Cancer Chemo + Radiation Blog

Two Years Cancer Free!

2011-07-19T16:13:00.001-07:00

Well it is 2 years out from finishing treatment and 3 years out from diagnosis and I am thrilled to report I have just finished my annual mammogram, blood work, bone scans, etc. and am cancer free! I am working full time teaching Pilates and Gyrotonic and traveling to Italy and Greece for a month-long adventure/vacation in August! So excited. I feel full of energy, happy and healthy.

One Year Out From Finishing Chemo!

2010-07-04T19:33:00.000-07:00

Happy Fourth of July everyone. I cannot believe that it has been one year since I finished chemotherapy. I want to let you know I am working full time, taking trips, excited about life and feeling full of energy and vitality. My daughter is entering UC Santa Barbara this fall and my son will be heading back to law school for his second year at USF. My wonderful husband has been with me from the beginning and is still my main support beam. I'm posting this photo of me taken with two friends last weekend in San Francisco. I wish you all good health!

Happy Holidays and Happy 2010!

2009-12-19T09:32:00.000-08:00

A heartfelt HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all of you! Thank you for supporting me this past year with your notes, food, friendship and love! Thanks to all of you, I am happy and healthy today and truly looking forward to this coming week of spending time with my good friends and family. Life is good.

Couldn't Have Made It Without You!

2009-11-07T10:07:00.000-08:00

As I go forward in my life and return to my spunky, busy self, I realize that I never could have made it through this cancer healing crisis without all of you! I need to acknowledge all the love and support I have received from family and friends and from my mother's friends and all of the blog's followers. I am forever grateful for the homemade dinners, prayers, cards, gifts and flowers, the company you provided during chemo den days, the driving you offered during trips to Palo Alto for radiation and the continued support throughout. I am also grateful to all the people who work for me at Joy of Movement who kept my business alive for me during the dark days and to Tessa who managed my business during that time. In many ways, the love and support were the real healing force that have carried me through this. THANK YOU ALL!

I am Finished!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-26T17:42:00.000-07:00

I can't tell you how happy I am!!!!! I had my very last radiation blast today and am done, done, done with all the treatments and am ready to move forward with my life. yahoo for me!!!!!!!!!

Only 2 More Rad Blasts 2 Go!

2009-10-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

After 16 months of treatment--2 surgeries, 4 months of chemo and 2 months of radiation I am SOOOOO done with all this cancer. I have 2 more rad blasts and I will close the book and move forward with my life. I will always help others going through this brutal disease but am pretty darn sure the cancer crab has scuttled away from me forever.

Rads #28 + #29

2009-10-16T09:08:00.001-07:00

I am so done with this radiation therapy. But still have six more treatments to go. Today I am feeling very tired, even after 12 hours of sleep and am feeling the burn all the time. Clothing really irritates my skin and I am counting the days until it is over.

Rads #27

2009-10-14T20:00:00.000-07:00

All is going well today, worked this morning and went for radiation therapy treatment #27 this afternoon. My energy is good and the burns don't seem to be getting any worse....

Rads 25 + 26

2009-10-13T09:27:00.001-07:00

The mammogram turned out to be for the power boost which they will give me after I finish the 28th regular radiation session. I was at the hospital yesterday for nearly 5 hours and am feeling VERY tired today; took the day off from work and will rest until I have to make the drive to Stanford. My skin is starting to ache and it is difficult to sleep at night because of the discomfort. I am SO HAPPY to have only 8 more sessions to go!

Mammogram?

2009-10-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

I got a call from Stanford after 5 PM on Friday telling me to arrive at 1:15 for a mammogram. It was a pre-recorded phone message so I couldn't ask any questions but I'm a little worried today to be going in for a mammogram in the midst of radiation! I already have to get chest x-rays each Monday in addition to the radiation therapy so what's going on here? Will let you know later when it all gets explained to me. Right now I'm going to work and then on to Stanford.

Rads #24

2009-10-09T08:25:00.000-07:00

Getting back into the swing of things here after 2 days of wonderous retreat with 9 members of WomanCare (a local cancer support group and resource center) held at the world famous Esalen Resort in Big Sur. We worked in the garden, participated in gestalt workshops and cancer support groups, ate amazing organic foods, meditated to world renowned digideroo sounds and bathed in the minerals baths overlooking the crashing waves of the pacific ocean. What a gift! My skin has started to show signs of abuse. The major areas receiving radiation (sternum, breast, collarbone and under the armpit) are all looking pretty badly burned. I'll try to take a photo today to keep you posted. Otherwise my energy level is pretty good.

Rads #21

2009-10-02T10:05:00.000-07:00

My radiation onc, Dr. Kate Horst, informed me the peeling sensation I have on my sternum is just that--a feeling. She said people with previous sun exposure often have this type of sensation but no peeling occurs. So that is a relief. The people from my support group who have been through radiation said the fatigue is normal and will last 2-3 weeks after radiation stops so I am planning on taking it as easy as possible and getting as much sleep as I possible can.

Rads #19

2009-09-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

Well I am starting to feel the burn. Especially in the sternum. It feels like the blistering paint on the hull of a ship. My rad onc is giving me 2 days off next week so I can take advantage of a great free trip to a resort on the Big Sur coast given to me by Womancare, the umbrella group that promotes the healing movement support group I've been running for people with cancer for the past 14 months. It pays to do good! Anyway my energy level is still great. i jogged 4 miles this morning and continue to work until noon or 1 pm each day.

Rads #18

2009-09-29T08:48:00.000-07:00

Oh it is a beautiful day today. My daughter is accompanying me to Stanford this afternoon for treatment. My skin is starting to blister just in the sternal area--from the manubrium to the xyphoid process--and that's exactly where the electron splitter is put on and the beam stays on longer in that area. It feels like it will start to peel soon. I'll keep applying aloe vera gel.

Weekend Fun

2009-09-27T18:05:00.000-07:00

I taught Pilates this morning, went to a sculpture exhibit, had lunch with a friend and am lazing around this evening, preparing for another long week of work and rads. Feeling vibrant and full of energy today.

Rads #15

2009-09-24T16:47:00.000-07:00

Today is good news/bad news kind of day. The good news is--my radiation oncologist says my skin looks superb for being halfway through treatment! She is very impressed. So here is my formula: I use Medline's Remedy skin repair cream in the morning. I apply Boiron Calendula cream right after treatment. When I get home I put on Lily of the Desert's 100% Aloe Vera gel and before bed I apply aloe vera gel and then Boiron Calendula oil. Works for me. Bad news--I am starting to feel the fatigue. Yesterday I slept 12 hours and still could barely get out of bed in the morning.

Rads #14

2009-09-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

My life has become a blur of work and rads treatments. I seem to be growing little healthier every day though and more hair too. I've lost 6 pounds since the end of chemo which is good for me.

Rads #12

2009-09-21T17:17:00.000-07:00

Radiation went A-OK today. My weekend was busy and I was invited to a Triple Negative Breast cancer support group and lunch in Campbell which was wonderful! I love meeting new people and especially those who are 9 years out and thriving.

Cost of Radiation Therapy

2009-09-19T10:11:00.000-07:00

Wow I just got the first bill for radiation therapy at Stanford--it costs $10,000 a week!!! Thank you God for letting me get treatment and for having health insurance. Don't like to think about the alternative. Here is an interesting article on health insurance.

Rads #11

2009-09-18T15:34:00.000-07:00

Whew my life has been BUSY lately; working until noon or 1 and driving to Stanford each afternoon, getting home at 4 or 5 PM depending on traffic and back to work for evening classes a few nights. My skin is holding up well. My energy is holding up well. This evening I'm going to hear Michael Franti & Spearhead at the Catalyst in downtown santa Cruz with some friends and dance, dance, dance.

Rads #8

2009-09-15T17:01:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Stanford. Re my hair--Several people told me I look like Demi Moore, one young lady asked me where I got my hair cut and a man came straight up to me and told me he LOVED my hair. Ha! People are funny. Anyway it sure is fun to get so much attention so I think I'll keep the buzz cut for now. Back to rads treatment--I saw the doc today and also gave blood for a CBC (complete blood count) workup. I have some numbness in my right upper arm and slight swelling in my right hand. I wore my compression sleeve the lymphedema specialist ordered for me and will do all the anti-lymphedema exercises. Also the scar in my armpit got REALLY red today after treatment and I may need to put extra cream on that area tonight.

Hair!

2009-09-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

It's been 2 months since Chemo ended and my hair is finally growing back in. Today I worked until 1 PM, drove to Stanford for my 2 PM radiation treatment and got home by 4 PM. I was so tired I took a 45 min nap--not sure if it is a side effect or just feeling tired today.

Rads #6

2009-09-11T17:24:00.000-07:00

I have 33 total radiation treatments and have completed 6 so 26 more to go! I am feeling a little tired today and am having trouble concentrating but don't know if it's from radiation or just the end of the week blahs. I've been taking L-Glutamine supplements daily and Vitamin D and drinking LOTS of water.

Rads #5

2009-09-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

So far no side effects from the radiation treatment. It's very pleasant at Stanford with beautiful gardens everywhere. In front of the radiation department is a lovely bamboo zen garden where you can meditate or bring a picnic lunch.

Insurance Matters

2009-09-09T07:58:00.000-07:00

I'm so lucky to be getting treated at Stanford! My oncologist here in Santa Cruz referred me to a local radiation oncologist named Charlotte Kim who I saw before Chemo started so I could plan ahead. I was not overly impressed with Dr. Kim and asked my insurance to approve a second opinion at Stanford which is one of the best hospitals in the States and about an hour's drive from my house. I didn't get around to making the appointment until after I'd finished Chemo treatment in July 2009 and of course it takes quite a bit of effort to get a second opinion at a big hospital because you have to bring ALL your original biopsy slides and x-rays and CT scans and medical records from all the various docs you've seen. That takes a lot of energy. But I did it. And when I finally met with Dr. Kate Horst, the radiation oncologist at Stanford, I was swept away with her intelligence, thoroughness, kindness and compassion. What truly sold me though was the analogy she used--saying that when you are having surgery, you don't just want ANY surgeon-- you want one who has performed 1000 mastectomies/lumpectomies before with clean margins. The radiation oncologist is like a surgeon. She is in charge of DESIGNING the radiation treatment. I am 100 percent convinced that getting radiation treatment at Stanford will have a better outcome than having it locally. My insurance (HMO) company was not happy. At first they said No. I appealed the decision and spoke to several different people at the insurance company. They denied the appeal. Finally, Dr. Horst called them and sent them a copy of her treatment plan and this time--the third try-- they APPROVED me having radiation treatment at Stanford! The moral of the story is persistence and aggressive advocacy is very helpful in these situations.

Rads #4

2009-09-08T18:56:00.000-07:00

Worked this morning and drove to Stanford for radiation session #4 this afternoon. No side effects to report yet.

David Visits

2009-09-06T21:54:00.000-07:00

My nephew David is visiting from Virginia. My daughter and Glen came to rads #3 with me on Friday which was quick and easy. I've been applying the aloe vera gel several times a day and have no side effects from the treatments yet. So far so good.

Rads Day #2

2009-09-03T21:25:00.000-07:00

Worked all morning at my studio and drove straight to Palo Alto for my afternoon radiation treatment. Also met with Dr. Horst this afternoon who said a Vit. D supplement would be good to start taking since I'll be out of the sunshine for the next 6 weeks. I also purchased some 100% organic aloe vera lotion and some calendula cream which i have to apply 3 x day. This evening we had a laughing yoga workshop at the studio which was really funny!!!!

Radiation Day #1

2009-09-02T17:50:00.000-07:00

I was at Stanford most of the day today. Starting tomorrow my appointments should be only 15-20 minutes long. They have assigned me to Linear Accelerator #9 (LA9) so when they bring me into the circular radiation room for treatment, these small satellites mounted on the ceiling spin and slide around on tracks and LA9 sends out the radiation rays in the exact pattern the radiation oncologist (Dr. Horst) has designed for me. It doesn't hurt at all but the nurses went over all kinds of skin care tips with me today and I have to apply healing skin ointment 3 x day to the treated area which extends from my right collarbone down and around my under arm area on the right side and to the sternum. More tomorrow.

Radiation Treatment begins @ Stanford

2009-09-01T18:44:00.001-07:00

I know I haven't blogged in a while...but hey I was busy having a life. But now I am back and begin radiation therapy at Stanford with Dr. Kate Horst tomorrow! Today I had a simulation where they practiced aiming the radiation satellites (that is what they look like) and Dr. Horst finalized the plan which includes daily radiation to the lymph nodes from beneath my collarbone on the right side to under the armpit all the way to my sternum. As you can see in the photo, the radiation therapists (that is what they call themselves) boldly marked the area with surgical markers. I'll be going for treatment M-F for the next 6 weeks. I am planning on staying as active as possible and continuing to work at least 4 days a week.

C Day 123 - Moving On

2009-07-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

I haven't been blogging daily because I've been too BUSY. And that is a good thing. I've been working every day, visiting with friends and family, getting stuff taken care of around the house and feeling great! Since I've got my life back I probably won't be blogging daily. I'll check back in to let you know I'm still alive. I did speak with the radiation oncologist at Stanford and unfortunately there are no clinical trials or alternate treatments available for me right now so they recommend a course of daily radiation beginning in about 10 days and lasting 6 weeks. There are severe side effects from radiation and right now I'm thinking about skipping that part. I'll let you know though and if I do, I'll have to blog my way through that. So thanks for helping me through. From the bottom of my heart.

C Day 120 - Support

2009-07-23T21:41:00.000-07:00

Just got home from teaching the Healing Movement Cancer Support Class that meets at my studio every Thursday 6-7:30 PM. It is such an awesome support group and we will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary next Thursday. Starting the support group was one of the best things I have done this past year. I have helped myself and many others, made new friends and given and received support. What an amazing journey. When people ask what I have learned from this journey, I think the Healing Movement class is one of the answers. My dad says forced humility is ALWAYS the reason. Could be. Anyway, I am feeling energized. My son is home safe from his trip to Cape Town and all in all--life is good!

C Day 119 - Journey On

2009-07-22T07:22:00.000-07:00

I am feeling amazingly well. And I am 16 days out from the last Chemo treatment. Most days I can work and exercise, visit friends, cook dinner for my family. This cancer journey has been pretty traumatic. I'm pretty sure I've been working on recovery since the minute I found the first lump in my breast.

C Day 117 - Monday Morning

2009-07-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

I'm awake and off to work to teach a class and train some new clients. I'm feeling energized. My next big goal is to lose 20 pounds to detoxify. Better start today.

C Day 116 - Berkeley Bound

2009-07-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

I'm heading up to Berkeley with some friends to take a workshop at the Breema Center. Should be fun.

C Day 115 - Baby Steps

2009-07-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

I finished Chemo on July 6 so it's been 12 days and so far so good! Each day I feel a little better and a little more energized and a little more like myself. I slept great last night. I'm taking ZERO drugs. I'm eating 100% organic food and taking a few vitamin supplements and exercising daily. That's my winning formula.

C Day 114 - Relay 4 Life

2009-07-17T17:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up at 6 and went to work. Jogged for half an hour. Worked out for 2 hours. Went to see the Lymphademia specialist and learned some new exercises for prevention this afternoon. Now, this evening is the American Cancer Institute's Relay For Life so I'm heading off to Cabrillo College to participate.

C Day 112 - More Facts

2009-07-15T06:32:00.000-07:00

I slept about 8 hours, lots of awakenings with night sweats. Also was awakened by the urge to vomit; really strange. This major detoxing is happening. My weight has been steady all through Chemo but I am planning on a weight loss diet now so and help shed some of the toxins along with the fat. I've been aiming for 2 hours of exercise each day. I finally got all my medical records together so now I can meet with the radiation oncologist at Stanford to hear their recommendations for further treatment. I'm off to work.

C Day 111 - Just The Facts

2009-07-14T07:57:00.000-07:00

Slept 10 hours. Experiencing night sweats. My mouth still has a really bad taste to it even though I floss my teeth 2 x day and brush 3-4 x day. My tongue is just coated. I know the toxic Chemo drugs are leaving my body. I can feel it. I am still bald but my hair is starting to grow back. It looks really wiry like a brillo pad because of the Chemo. I'm eating tons of fiber (all organic fruits and veggies) to help flush the toxins out. I'm taking several supplements to help--multi-vitamins, fish oil, quercetin, antioxidants, CQ-10--and today, I'm feeling energized and ready to take on this beautiful blue sky summer day.

C Day 110 - Carry That Weight

2009-07-13T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hey I don't want to whine but life seems to be a bit of a struggle just now. It's funny because through all the 8 sessions of Chemo that I've been through, it appears the most challenging time is right now--the end of Chemo. You'd think not but maybe it's the convergence of the mental, emotional, physical challenges of cancer all coming together in their crab-like way to make life difficult to cope with. Physically I have been beaten with toxic chemicals; emotionally I'm dealing with the possibility of recurrence and mentally I'm coping with keeping my head above water so I can stay optimistic and on a strong course of healthy anti-cancer behavior. Today I am going to the studio to work and this afternoon I will try to get all my medical records copied so I can take them to Stanford tomorrow. This may be an optimistic agenda.

C Day 108 - Increments

2009-07-11T08:09:00.000-07:00

OK I am getting better but it is in bite-sized increments, not giant steps. Why is everything to do with cancer at its own pace and not mine? I am totally ready to be better. Now. I feel like I have an aggressive plan to stay cancer free and have started taking bio-identical hormones to rebalance my hormones and it is working. Instead of having 10 hot flashes yesterday I only had one. Isn't that amazing? To keep my body PH as alkaline as possible, I'm giving up coffee. Finally. Down to 1/2 cup in the morning but by next week that should be gone. My brother is coming to visit this beautiful Saturday morning so I am off to shower and get ready for his visit.

C Day 107 - Better Every Day

2009-07-10T06:55:00.000-07:00

This Taxol departing my body is nasty stuff--restless leg syndrome and general weakness all over. I know that one day I will wake up and I WILL feel better. Not quite today though. In the meantime, I'm exercising, taking supplements, bio-identical hormones to rebalance my hormone levels and eating mostly organic, vegan foods. We had a GREAT Healing Movement class last night. I love that class!

C Day 106 - Good-Bye Taxol!

2009-07-09T08:35:00.000-07:00

I can feel the Taxol slowly leaving my system. My legs feel like rubber and I feel slightly out of it and slightly fatigued but all in all--very happy to be alive! I've got so many things to do during this break between treatments so I'm making lists, working and basically getting stuff done. Of course, I'm spending time with family and friends too. Love and friendship make the world go around.

C Day 105 - Life Goes On

2009-07-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling a bit under the weather this morning. From that last Taxol treatment I am sure. However, I'm dragging myself into work and am intent on maintaining my 3 x week work schedule. So wish me well. This afternoon I need to get all my records together to send to Stanford Radiation Therapy which will be a BIG job. Oh and I'm going to see my primary care physician, Darlene Zanker and ask her to re-balance my hormones. Since about a month into Chemo treatments, I was thrust into menopause bg time with 8-10 hot flashes a day and I have read you can use bio-identical estrogen, progesterone and testosterne to bring yor body back into a youthful state. God, I hope it works. It sounds divine. Wouldn't we all like to be in a "youthful" state? ha.

C Day 104 - Sing Me A Happy Song To Prove We Can Get Along The Lumpy, Bumpy, Long & Dusty Road

2009-07-07T08:00:00.000-07:00

I am done with Chemo!!!!!! This is exciting day. I'm going to Pilates clas and then to work out for an hour with a friend on a treadmill so I can get my two hours of exercise in this morning. On Wednesday I will start taking all the supplements recommended by Dr. Block in his book Life Over Cancer and begin my re-building phase for the next year. I still haven't been able to make the second opinion appointment at Stanford Radiation Therapy but am gathering all those records and should have an appointment in the next 2 weeks. I'll keep in touch. But help me celebrate this glorious end of Cheotherapy and pray, pray, pray that I never have, ever have to go through this again. Goodbye cancer!

C Day 103 - Final Chemo Session (#8)

2009-07-06T07:13:00.000-07:00

I'm eating a blueberry scone with strawberry jam and drinking half a cup of coffee. Not the most nutritious breakfast I know but it sure tastes good. My husband and my daughter and several friends will be there for me today. Should be quite a day. I took my steroids yesterday as instructed and am going to get a 20 minute hill walk in before I hit the shower. I've had 2 bad hematoma needle sticks so far and they are painful so let's hope that part goes better today and that somehow my body can withstand this last dose dense Taxol infusion.

C Day 102 - Jitters

2009-07-05T11:21:00.000-07:00

So tomorrow I will have my last Chemo session! I am excited and also scared. I am happy it's my last session but also dreading it at the same time. Definitely very emotional. I know people who have gone through multiple chemo treatments over the years but I hope and pray this will be my last one ever. Given a little, tiny bit of perspective I can say it has been mainly a nightmare that I would not wish on my worst enemy. I am going to keep my focus on all the pro-active things I will be doing to keep cancer at bay forever--organic foods, daily exercise, supplements--and continue to help other people to the best of my ability.

C Day 101 - Happy 4th of July!!!!

2009-07-04T08:17:00.000-07:00

Feeling better today. Am off to spend time swimming and eating good food with family in Marin. Happy Fourth!!!!!

C Day 100 - Centennial Queen

2009-07-03T09:21:00.000-07:00

Wow I cannot believe this! Today is day 100 on Chemo. And it has been just over one year since I was first diagnosed. The good news is Monday is my LAST Chemo session. Today I am feeling a bit low. My energy just gave out yesterday afternoon. I was able to get to the Healing Movement Support Group I teach on Thursday evenings but then came home and crashed. I'm not sure if I just overdid it all week or if I picked up Swine Flu (just kidding). Luckily, today I can just relax.

C Day 99 - Working

2009-07-02T07:57:00.000-07:00

Just read the latest updates from Breastcancer.org and I am invariably disappointed by their "news". Seems to me like the same old, same old. The best they can come up with in the way of NEW treatment for triple negatives like me is to suggest the clinical trials that use Avastin (like the one I was kicked out of at Stanford in 2008) are somehow the best, newest thing. I don't think so. Maybe I should go back to school and become a cancer researcher. Right now though I'm going to have a quick shower and get to work.

C Day 98 - Engaged In Life

2009-07-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

I just enrolled in a weight lifting class at Cabrillo College. I need to keep up the cardio portion of my daily exercise--it sure makes a difference in my energy levels. They have a wonderful gym at our local community college here and it only costs a few dollars per unit to join so it seems like a good way to go. I'm still feeling strong today, getting ready to go to work, to take class and to teach classes. I finally contacted Stanford about getting in for a second opinion on radiation and will have to jump through a few hoops (i.e. contact all my previous doctors and get a hold of ALL my medical records and x-rays and MRIs and CT scans) and have them all sent to Stanford. But hey I can do that. In America, you have to work HARD at your health and also at getting the treatment you need. It's almost a full-time job.

C Day 97 - Long and Winding Road

2009-06-30T07:55:00.000-07:00

I talked to my son this morning who is living in Cape Town, South Africa for the next month. he's taking classes on Apartheid and Multi-Racial Government at the University of Cape Town, teaching children English and helping men learn basic computer skills so they can get a job. Yesterday he said he helped a man write a resume and set up an e-mail account so he'd qualify for a job. He is also starting an internship at an International Human rights agency. He said it's the best international experience he's had so far in his life. It's funny how we already have so many things chosen for us at birth--nationality, race, IQ, health, parents (or not)....It just reminds me that life is such a crapshoot. I am GRATEFUL to be born in California, To have a loving family that I am part of, to have never been starving to death, to have a college education, to be able to give back to the world, to have had 46 years of perfect health, to own my own business that I love, to be here now to see how this day will unfold.

C Day 96 - Off 2 Work I Go

2009-06-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

So excited about getting back to work on a regular basis. Yeah! I'm glad I have a plan to go forward after all these Chemo treatments are done. It's funny because you are forced to emerge from cancer a new person and it is challenging to find your way. So far so good for me. Like a Phoenix rising out of the ashes.

C Day 95 - I'm Bad

2009-06-28T08:14:00.000-07:00

Thinking about Michael Jackson these past few days. I don't want to die at 50! What a performer he was though and what a downfall he had. Why couldn't anyone help him? Anyway, my fingertips are numb and I was just thinking it was dry skin but now i'm realizing it's from the Taxol. It could be worse but it is annoying. I'm off for Pilates class and my husband, Glen and I are planning a hike this afternoon. Tomorrow I go back to work! Wowee.

C Day 94 - Life Goes On

2009-06-27T08:03:00.000-07:00

Looks like it's going to be another beautiful day. I'm planning on a jog/walk on the beach and heading to the farmer's market for some organic veggies. I'm going to start teaching on Monday which will be good in many ways and kind of mark the beginning of my real rehab. I imagine it's going to take me 6 months-year to fully regain my strength and health from the Chemo treatments. And I haven't even decided about doing the radiation part yet. Most likely I will though. Just don't want to think about it quite yet.

C Day 93 - Gettin' Better

2009-06-26T06:59:00.000-07:00

Another day of exercising to try to regain my energy level. Every day gets a little better.

C Day 92 - Up and At Em

2009-06-25T07:22:00.000-07:00

I'm awake and eating some yummy french toast and although my energy is very low, I'm going to force myself to take a shower and go to Pilates class. Exercising is the only way I know to build my energy back up and in the beginning it takes some effort. But it is so worth it. Pilates is perfect because you can do almost all the exercises lying on your back.

C Day 91 - Overly Optimistic?

2009-06-24T11:28:00.000-07:00

OK so I had to cancel all my plans for the day when I literally couldn't get out of bed this morning. Right now though I am sitting up and eating some oatmeal. I feel like someone has poured molten lead down my spine and it hardened during the night and now I am just a big stiff lead stick. Hopefully it will get better soon.

C Day 90 - Yippee Ki Aye!

2009-06-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

I made it through my 7th treatment! I slept well (with the help of 2 adavan) and am visiting with my lovely daughter who is back from her whirlwind tour of merry ole England (replete with lots of Oxford sweatshirts) and she's coming to Pilates class with me this morning. Life is good. I do have a smallish hematoma from the needle stick yesterday but not so bad. This afternoon I have my Neulasta shot although my WBC was up to 19 yesterday and it has never been above 10 before. I e-mailed Dr. Michael Yen, Oncologist to ask him what could cause the elevation of the WBC and wanted to make sure it was OK because he hadn't mentioned it during the exam prior to Chemo yesterday and he said it was nothing to worry about, caused either by the steroids I have to take prior to Taxol or by the Neulasta finally kicking in to do its job....so we'll hope he's right about that. Have a great day, I know I will.

C Day 89 - Chemo #7

2009-06-22T06:31:00.000-07:00

This will mark my 7th overall Chemotherapy session (and the third Dose Dense Taxol session). Did you know that only 1/3 of patients make it through their 8 sessions? I slept about 6 hours last night. Not too bad for a pre-chemo night. And I'm getting ready to go take a Pilates apparatus class and then my sister-in-law, Claire, will pick me up and take me to the Chemo session. My daughter return from two weeks in the U.K. this evening so a full day this will be I expect.

C Day 88 - Oh Lucky Day

2009-06-21T09:08:00.000-07:00

Eighty-eight is a refactorable number, a primitive semiperfect number and an untouchable number. The Chinese believe the number 8 is the luckiest number. So...guess today is my LUCKY day. Plus it is Father's Day! Happy Father's Day to all fathers and particularly to my father, Al and to Glen, the father of my children! We're going to the beach and I have to remember to take the dexamethasone twice today because tomorrow is Chemo #7. Oh yeah, 7 is my lucky number.

C Day 87 - Laughter Is the Best Medicine

2009-06-20T08:17:00.000-07:00

We're going to San Francisco to see Monte Python's Spamalot. It should be a lot of laughs and I'm sure laughter releases those NK Natural Killer cells that fight off cancer so it will be healthful too! Chemo Session #7 is on Monday. But I am not going to let that little thought spoil my day.

C Day 86 - Happy 2 Dance

2009-06-19T06:47:00.000-07:00

My oncologist's office (Dr. Michael Yen) called yesterday to ask where I was. I told them my appointment is on Monday. This is the second time they messed up my scheduling. Melinda, one of the nurses there, called earlier in the week to change my appointment to 11 AM on Monday which I was unhappy about because my sister-in-law, Claire is driving down from San Rafael to be my support person that day and the appointment was originally scheduled for 8:45 AM. So all this messing around with Chemo appointments makes me CRAZY. I mean it is a life and death thing and the people who work for the oncologist just don't get it. Good news is that after Monday's session, I will only have one left!!! That will end the wretched chemo part of the tretament. Yeah!!! Right now I am investigating hyperthermia cancer treatments rather than radiation but we shall see. One thing at a time. OK I'm off for 2 hours of exercise!!!!

C Day 85 - Celebrate Life!

2009-06-18T08:37:00.000-07:00

Feeling fine this morning and am off to exercise! For any of you non-exercisers out there reading my blog, I can't tell you how much exercising improves your energy level! It is amazing. Anyway, I had a fabulous breakfast of organic blueberry and banana buckwheat pancakes and after my hour of jogging, I'm going to San Francisco for the day. Should be fun.

C Day 84 - Daily Exercise

2009-06-17T07:22:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy to have my son home --even if it's only for one day. He's so lucky to be able to go off to Cape Town to study for the summer. Anyway, I am adhering to Dr. Keith Block's rx for people in Chemo to exercise for one hour each day. I know some days I've felt so poorly, I've only been able to walk or move for 15 minutes but my new goal is a solid one hour each day. So I'm off to the beach to meet my friend Jayme for some beach walking/jogging and then to my Pilates studio for a class. One of my other friend's, Kathy, is getting an MRI this morning so I will say some prayers for her.

C Day 83 - Friendly Sea Lion Encounter

2009-06-16T06:43:00.000-07:00

So Tere and I are walking on the beach and this baby sea lion waves to me and rides a wave all the way to shore, gets out of the water and says hi to me. It was amazing! Surely this is a sign from God that love matters, healing is happening and everything is unfolding exactly the way it should. I'm not reading too much into this am I? Anyway, I am off to Sonoma today to help my son move out of his house and bring all his stuff home because he departs for Cape Town, South Africa on Thursday. Exciting!

C Day 82 - Leadership + Momentum

2009-06-15T08:16:00.000-07:00

I must have some momentum going here--I got it together to become an official sponsor of the Relay For Life here July 17 + 18. It's great for my business and makes me feel good about doing something for the cancer community. I'm so glad their color is purple and you get to wear purple T-shirts--all that pink ribbon stuff just makes me nauseous. And I enrolled in a Healing Mandala class where you get to paint and use natural items like flower petals to create beautiful mandala art. I'm really excited about it and it is something I've wanted to do forever--just for me--but haven't done it. So that is way cool. And finally....I set a date for going back to work--June 29th--just 3 days a week and I am a bit scared and didn't sleep well last night because I'm worried about starting work too soon (even before the Taxol treatments are complete) but I think it is a good thing to do. I need to use this momentum to build my energy, stamina, strength; to stay positive.

C Day 81 - I'll Follow The Sun

2009-06-14T08:16:00.000-07:00

Feeling great today and plan to have a full day. I still feel all those ideas about change swirling around and am very interested in what will be created. I picked up a great new book, Life Over Cancer by Keith Block that is helping me create my plan for the future. I've been observing people around me dropping like flies once their major rounds of chemo and radiation are done-- they're weak from malnutrition and emotionally weak from all the toxicity and they are depressed. I want to bypass all that and be conscious of this next phase of anti-cancer I will be entering. I want to be strong, happy, vibrant, full of life with enough energy to help myself and others.

C Day 80 - Search For Meaning

2009-06-13T08:39:00.000-07:00

I'm up and off to Gyrokinesis class, the farmer's market and the bookstore. What I meant about more people dying on the way down is simply that chemo (or any other kind of cancer treatment i.e. surgery, alternative, radiation, etc.) is just one step. Cancer is a chronic disease and asks us to totally transform they way we care for ourselves. So...if we make our way down the mountain and return to our "old" ways of living, thinking, moving, relating, the cancer will reappear. It's just a symptom after all. I wish I had a complete understanding about what cancer means for me. All I know for sure is that it asks of me a total transformation and provides an alchemical means to do that. I'm not who I was a week ago, a month ago, a year ago. But I am a few centimeters closer to God, closer to my "soul" self. I realize that I've been forced to slow WAY down like slow motion for me but it's just the way the cancer works. Right now I am devising ways to continue my life and livelihood after I finish treatment because when you have been through cancer and treatment, there's no way back. And I need a plan. Right now I am planning a rehab program including teaching SLOW Pilates (for rehab) 3 x week and keeping my eyes open for ways to help others with chronic health conditions. I'm working on growing some organic vegetables and making a list of all the right supplements to take to keep me cancer-free.

C Day 79 - Summit In Sight

2009-06-12T08:15:00.001-07:00

OK so here's the deal. Climbing the mountain is tough. There's planning and logistical stuff and tactical and day by day work but here we are almost at the summit and guess what? We have to come down. Chemotherapy treatment finishes and leaves us on the summit. More people DIE climbing down from the mountain then climbing up. There are icy patches and over-confidence and getting lost and storms. So here is my chance to begin to plan an amazing post-chemo care plan. I know I need to include daily rehab exercise, specific supplements, nutrition and perhaps bio-identical hormonal replacement because I'm suddenly in menopause after all the chemo treatments. Also, I have to create a new job for myself because I can't just go back to working like I used to--I still don't have the strength and stamina--so I need to envision a whole new me. That's what I'm working on today.

C Day 78- Shot of Rhythm and Blues

2009-06-11T08:19:00.001-07:00

My plan of action today is to try to stave off that Restless Leg Syndrome with some weight bearing exercise, eat really, really well, stay hydrated and rest when I feel tired. All in all, quite the agenda. Ha.

C Day 77 - Alive and Kickin'

2009-06-10T09:09:00.000-07:00

I'm here to report that I dragged my butt out of bed and am sitting upright and feeling pretty OK. Wow am I surprised! I do have a slight feeling that all my organs have been puffed up overnight and are in danger of falling out of my body. And my body feels stiff like a wiry old man. But hey that is nothing compared to restless leg syndrome and pulzarized bones. You know what they say--whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

C Day 76 - Six Down Only 2 More To Go!

2009-06-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

Everything went like a charm yesterday. The oncology nurse, Kendra, even used my left arm, albeit on my hand. But it didn't hurt a bit and the entire appoitnment only took 5 hours which wasn't too bad. Today I am A-OK and off to take a Pilates class, help a friend who has a bad Bell's Palsy infection and attend a Cancer Support Group 12:30-2 at WomanCare in Capitola. I'm going to eat some organic oatmeal with organic blueberries for breakfast, Yum.

C Day 75 - Chemo Session #6

2009-06-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

Can she make it? I can think of 50 things I'd rather do today than sit in the Chemo Den at Oncologist Michael Yen's office and get myself infused with Dose Dense Taxol dripped in my veins via an IV. OK, on the other hand I can't think of many things I'd least like to do than die of Triple Negative Breast Cancer. Or any cancer. So I'll take a shower, a box of cookies for the staff people, get my wig on and get my butt out the door. My daughter leaves today for 2 weeks in England. My son will be departing next week for a month in Cape Town and then in July my husband is going to spend a month in China. I'll just be hanging out here, getting well and maybe, just maybe I'll get to do some world explorations next year. Cheerio.

C Day 74 - Little Help From My Friends

2009-06-07T08:41:00.000-07:00

So I am NOT going to think about tomorrow--that would simply mess up today. And today is a gorgeous sunny day that I intend to enjoy. We are all in this thing called life together and life is always fatal--for everyone. Cancer is a great teacher of living in the moment, slowing down, remaining open, and digging in to the depth of things.

C Day 73 - Eat, Drink, Be Merry

2009-06-06T09:45:00.000-07:00

I'm off to the farmer's market with a friend. My calves hurt from so much walking yesterday and going up and down the big beach stairs -- twice. The hematoma is about a quarter of the size it was and no longer painful. So I'll be ready for Monday's #6 DD Taxol treatment. The very best news is there are only 2 more sessions after that! My friend Karli will be there for me and I am so happy. I've taken someone with me each session and it makes a big difference. Many of the other people in the chemo den are all alone and it just seems wrong--so sad and lonely. I'd rather beg all my family and friends to go with me than to go alone. Besides you have to sit there for 5 hours during the IV drip.

C Day 72 - Ob-La-Di, Ob-La-Da

2009-06-05T06:49:00.000-07:00

The Lymhedema expert, Joanne, gave me some great advice and is having me make little pillows filled with cherry pits that I put under my bra by the scarred areas and the cherry pits move around and massage the scar tissue stimulating the lymph in those areas. She discovered this method in Germany and has used it successfully on herself and she is a 5 year breast cancer survivor. Good stuff. I just wish I could sew. My mom can sew. My daughter sews. I guess it skips a generation. Anyway, I'll figure out how to make them. Right now I'm thinking glue gun. I taught Healing Movement class yesterday evening for cancer survivors and it was great! So the MRI center called to cancel my MRI for this morning. They said they don't have the equipment to do an arm MRI after all. So I told them to report back to Dr. Yen. In the meantime, the hematoma thing seems to be getting smaller and they're going to have to use another vein on Monday anyway so....I'll just worry about that Monday. Today I'm going to have fun.

C Day 71 - In The Flow

2009-06-04T08:18:00.001-07:00

Just woke up happy today. No reason. So I'm going with it. I have a lymphedema appointment this morning and will probably work with the physical therapist to learn some exercises to help prevent the build up of lymph (creating a buildup of fluids in the tissue and blood) which happens quite often after cancer surgeries and chemo and especially if there is trauma to the vein like in the case of my hematoma/collapsed vein. So I will learn all the exercises and teach them at my Healing Movement Support Group tonight and forevermore so I can help others while I help myself.

C Day 70 - Stabilization

2009-06-03T07:12:00.000-07:00

Feeling stable and strong. I might go into work today. This morning I'm going to work on some projects from home. It's been ONE YEAR since I first discovered the lump on my right breast. Amazing! I recall it was a sunny, beautiful day and I was home for lunch and went outside to the backyard in my bikini to do some sunbathing and when I felt the lump I immediately knew something was VERY wrong. I'm pretty sure I called my primary care physician (who I had never even met before) and got an appointment to see her that week because it was on June 11, 2008 that I made the appointment for the mammogram and biopsy. It's simply amazing how much change can take place in one year.

C Day 69 - All Things Must Pass

2009-06-02T09:10:00.000-07:00

OK so got an appointment at the Lymphedemia Clinic, and am waiting for the MRI people to get the MRI scheduled. In the meantime the avocado sized lump on the inside of my arm is about the same size but a bit less painful and I have some energy this morning so I'll try to use that to get some exercise and get some healing going on. It's funny to me how challenging it is to truly take good care of ourselves in this society. It is difficult to eat well, sleep well, get enough exercise, get good medical care. And then there's the spiritual side too. What does our spirit need? Are we following our spiritual calling? Are we leading meaningful lives that actually help ourselves and others? Many days I have thought about--if I beat this cancer--how BEST can I use the rest of my life energy to do good?

2009-06-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

Dr. Yen ordered an MRI of my vein which will take place in the next day or two. It is probably a collapsed vein. Bad news is I can't use my left arm anymore for Chemo infusions which means I have to use my right arm which is the side where both previous surgeries took place and there's a very likely chance of Lymphedema. Yeah I know sometime life just sucks.

C Day 68 - One Day @ A Time

2009-06-01T07:17:00.001-07:00

Yesterday afternoon my left arm suddenly developed a strange avocado shaped mass under the skin that was very painful and just above the spot where the nurse pokes me with the IV for the Chemo drip. It appears to be an abscess or thrombosis, blood clot or infected collapsed vein. Either from the prolonged Taxol treatment and my veins are not happy, a bad needle stick from the nurse or possibly even a reaction from the Neulasta shot gone bad. It's definitely not good. I called Dr. Yen, oncologist and he called me right back, told me to come in this morning. So I am on my way to the oncologist's office. Pray for me, for healing. I really hope my veins aren't shot and that would hold up the remaining treatments. And of course I hope it's not a more serious problem like a blood clot that could break off and give me a heart attack....Stay tuned.

C Day 67 - A New Normal

2009-05-31T08:45:00.000-07:00

People who have gone through cancer and cancer treatment always talk about a new normal. Now I know what that means first hand. Today I have the pleasure of awakening without shooting pains in my arms and legs, without the sensation of pulzarized bones, without my eyeballs being glued shut. I awoke with energy to cook myself a healthy breakfast and to call a friend to arrange a beach walk. This will be my first day leaving my house in 4 days. And I'm so happy. Cause I feel "normal". A new normal.

C Day 66 - Simple Things

2009-05-30T08:27:00.000-07:00

I am awake, alive, eating a bowl of organic oatmeal with organic fruit and almond milk and drinking 1/2 cup of strong black coffee. It's going to be a good day. I'm pretty positive I'll be able to take a walk today, cook some good food for myself and my family, visit with a friend, take a shower, watch a movie. Ah, the simple things. It's so funny--when you've surrendered everything to the cancer monster, it's the very small things in your life (things you used to take for granted) That are now big major highlights! Embrace the change. Re the last Taxol treatment, it pretty much followed the same pattern as the A/C--felt OK for 2 days and then DOWN for 2 days, then a slow recovery. I think the Taxol was worse for me than the A/C though. The bone crushing pain and the restless leg electrical spasms were barely tolerable. I finally did break down last night and took an Ativan to sleep through the night and I have to admit it did help.

C Day 65 - Two Steps Back

2009-05-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

I am feeling a teensy bit better this morning. My spine feels like it's been half-pulzarized and I got the Restless Leg Syndrome last night (where your legs feel like they have little electric wires in them and you are a marionette) that Yen says is common with Taxol. I also feel very stiff like a large plastic doll and very, very old and can only shuffle around. All in all, not a real good feeling. However, being the amazing optimist that I am, I am going to count my blessings--I am alive. I am breathing. I have a stack of good books to read. My mind seems to be working pretty well. I have family and friends that love me. And I don't know if this is acceptable or not but I'm too tired this morning to make my organic steel-cut oatmeal with fresh fruit so I'm eating oatmeal cookies instead. They sure taste good. Yum.

C Day 64 - One Step Forward....

2009-05-28T09:54:00.000-07:00

So I had to trash all my plans for today when I literally couldn't get out of bed. I've dragged myself downstairs to have a cup of coffee and sit up for a few minutes but honestly this is one of my worst days. My body feels like someone ripped out my skeleton, ran it over a few times with a u-haul and then put it back in my body. Plus my eyeballs keep getting glued shut. It's back to bed for me, erase all those ambitious plans. Pray and know this too shall pass.

C Day 63 - 5 Down, Only 3 more Chemo Sessions 2 Go!

2009-05-27T08:19:00.001-07:00

Man I am past the halfway marker and feeling damn good. Everyone says today will be the worst day but so far so good. I slept well last night and am off to the oncologists office for the day after Neulasta shot. Yen said I could skip the antinausea med today as Taxol is much less nausea-inducing than the A/C but I think I'll bring the meds in my purse just in case he's wrong about that. The Chemo Den was full yesterday, 9 people. I love hearing all their stories and what regimes they are on. Many of the patients have breast cancer like me, some have serious metastasis; others have testicular cancer, one man yesterday said he told the onc he doesn't want to know what he has, only that it is fatal. Imagine that. My mind would demand to know. Each to their own.

C Day 62 - Session #5

2009-05-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

I'm off to Yen's Den for my first Taxol treatment which will be my Fifth Chemo Session and once this is nailed down, only 3 more to go. July 6 is my last session and there will be fireworks! Pray for me today that all will go smoothly. Doesn't matter to me if you are Buddhist, Sikh, Christian, Jewish--all prayers reach God in my world. And isn't that the source of true healing?

C Day 61 - Mother's Little Helper

2009-05-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

Took the 2 Dexamethasone tabs Dr. Yen told me to and will take 2 more this evening. Am all ready to be hit by the Taxol treatment tomorrow. The session takes 4 hours and I'm definitely NOT looking forward to it but what the heck--might as well finish what I started. My friend Jeannine send me the wonderful photo of her in front of the Great Wall where she says my blog is blocked by the Chinese government. How sad for the Chinese they can't access information that might help them with cancer treatments!!!! Freedom is not underrated. I've always wanted to take a bicycle tour across China and visit the Shaolin Temple and if this Triple Negative Breast Cancer can just be blasted from my body with all this brutal Chemotherapy, maybe I'll get a chance to make that happen.

C Day 60 - Some Kind of Wonderful

2009-05-24T10:14:00.000-07:00

Today I am exhausted and plan to stay at home all day but the past two days have been so wonderful! I got to hang out with my family and celebrate my son's accomplishments and it all makes you realize that #1 health is the most important thing and #2 family is the second most important thing in life. So keep it simple, stupid. Next Chemo treatment is Tuesday. I have to remember to take all my premeds tomorrow and wrap my brain around the new Taxol treatments which at this moment seem a bit scary.

C Day 59 - Graduation Day!!!

2009-05-23T08:37:00.000-07:00

Today is the day I get to see my son graduate from college! Theo is graduating with honors from Sonoma State University. he majored in Global Studies, minored in Philosophy and wrote his 37 page thesis on The Interconnected World, Decline of The Nation State. he will be travelling to Cape Town, South Africa for the summer to study Apartheid and Government and then will start Law School at USF this Fall. Could a mother be more proud? I think not. So happy I am alive to witness all this!

C Day 58 - Off to Sonoma

2009-05-22T07:24:00.000-07:00

I'm still feeling the effects from the cold I had earlier this week; my head is stuffed up this morning and my eyes are watery. I have to try and take it easy and REST as much as possible because tomorrow is one of the great days of my life--watching my son graduate from college. It's kind of like Christmas and New Year's Eve and a wedding all rolled into one. Yeah!!!!!!!

C Day 57 - We Are The Champions

2009-05-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

Just to let you know, Adam Lambert should have won. After that amazing performance with Kiss and Carlos Santana and Queen, they should have crowned him. What a shame that life isn't always fair. Or that it doesn't always go the way you want it to. So I picked up my new meds yesterday from the Pharmacy--Dexamethasone (which is a steroid) and Emend for nausea--that I'll need to take on Monday, the day before the next Chemo where I'll be given the Taxol for the first time. Right now I am focused on my son's upcoming graduation and all the fun family things we'll be doing this weekend and I'm feeling good so I'll just head off to work now and just stay in the moment.

C Day 56 - We Can Work This Out

2009-05-20T06:31:00.001-07:00

Feeling pretty chipper this morning, despite a stuffy nose. I'm off to work for a few hours this morning and then over the hill for a little shopping as I want to look my very best when my son graduates from college on Saturday--new dress, new shoes, maybe a new wig if it's not too expensive...will take pictures. Oh yeah, and there's a big awards ceremony this evening for all the high school athletes and my daughter is getting an award for swimming (she's an awesome swimmer) so I'll have to attend that...Then tonight we get to find out who is the next American Idol? I have my money on Adam.

C Day 55 - Stayin' Alive

2009-05-19T07:39:00.001-07:00

I am much better today so I guess my immune system isn't completely obliterated. I'm off to take Pilates class and work for a few hours. I'll try to take it easy this afternoon so I can make the American Idol (Kris v Adam) bash at my friend Tere's house which is going to be fun, fun, fun. My daughter said to wash my hands every 10 minutes and try not to touch anyone....I've never been any goood at keeping my hands to myself. Back to Kindergarten for me.

C Day 54 - It's My Life

2009-05-18T08:40:00.000-07:00

Still have that nasty cold but otherwise A-OK. Only 4 days until my son graduates from college and I am so excited I really can't think about much else. I may go buy a new wig today for the ceremony but it actually feels like my hair is starting to sprout a bit so maybe it would be a waste of money. I'll have to have a huge party when my hair returns!

C Day 53 - Not Wonder Woman

2009-05-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Oops I forgot I am not invincible! I've been feeling so spunky the past few days I attended a huge party and dinner Friday night when all of my daughter's friends and their families were gathered for Junior Prom and must have picked up a cold. Generally when you're going through Chemo treatment, you're advised to stay away from large crowds of people because your immune system is compromised. Anyway, I totally forgot that because I was having too much fun and woke up this morning with a big head cold, all stuffed up and with a sore throat to boot. Good thing I have Kung Fu Panda on dvd.

C Day 52 - A Day In The Life

2009-05-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

Grabbed my coffee and organic oatmeal and am off to Gyrokinesis and Pilates class. No stopping me now.

C Day 51 - And We All Shine On

2009-05-15T08:09:00.000-07:00

I feel GREAT today and am off to Pilates class!

C Day 50 - All I've Got To Do

2009-05-14T09:13:00.000-07:00

So I just counted the days until this is over and there are actually 52 more days until I am done. July 6 will be the final drip bag of horrible chemicals in my body to kill the cancer that ate the breast that fed the tumor that lived in the cells....you get the picture. At any rate I have tons of things to catch up on today and am planning on going to work this afternoon and leading the Healing Movement Support Class this evening so I'm off and running.